I Defeat Laziness

I wake up. I open my eyes. I take a look at my phone clock. Uh shit! It’s almost twelve at noon. What happened to the eight thirty alarm? I wonder

I remember it gradually. I woke up at that time. I told myself, “Amazing! I get up now and make a great day, but first, let me lie down straight so that my neck softens.” My neck has softened until now. It has softened so much that the other side is stiff! Different thoughts are coming to me: “This was your last shot. . . You’d promised to wake up early today, you had a lot of things to do. . . Weren’t you supposed to get rid of your bad habits?” they say

I come to my senses, but with these thoughts, even if I don’t feel like the world is over, my day definitely is. I don’t know when to get up, what to do, and where to go. I tell myself, “now that I have slept too much, let’s sleep a little bit more.” I lie down on my right side and get under the blanket. My feet are ice cold from last night. I didn’t get under the blanket so that I wouldn’t sleep much. Oh I wished

I try to sleep, “maybe a miracle happens and I’ll wake up at eight in the morning.” But it won’t. I’m not even tired anymore to fall asleep. And my thoughts are killing me. I won’t get over them if I stay in bed

I still think my day is over. It’s very frustrating, especially since I was motivated for it last night. But it’s over now, my day is wasted

But a voice deep inside me talks of hope. “Do the thing you wanted to do at eight o’clock, NOW!” it says

What did I want to do? I ask

You wanted to get up and go running first thing in the morning. it answers

But it’s twelve! It’s over forty degrees celsius! I need my energy for the rest of my—” I gets cut off and it goes, “Enough! Do you know a better way? At least, get up!” I jump out of bed

I’m almost nervous. My breath is heavier. My heartbeat is faster. I brush my teeth first. As the brush moves inside my mouth, I try to find peace. I focus on the movement of brush. I feel it on my teeth. I feel the foamy toothpaste that is about to stream down my lips. I finish brushing. I get out of the bathroom

Look, you lost your day, at least save the rest of it till its end.” I tell myself

“But what should I do?” I ask, “In my plans, I was supposed to be somewhere else, doing something else, at this time

”Who said you must have a definite plan? Did you know how today looked like? You only know your main tasks. Right now, instead of blaming yourself, do the right thing

“Ok I will

I put on my shorts, shoes, and headphone, and go out. I go running

Running first thing in the morning is horrifying in itself, and to top it all, I haven’t run for two weeks don’t know if I can make it any how. But I Let go. I’m already outside. I’ve left everything behind. There’s only the running track ahead of mine. I must run.

First, I walk to the beach. But not that kind of a romantic beachy walk you imagine, a walk to achieve. Then my music plays, and I start running

Woooaaahh

I’m running

I did it

After days of planning and trying to do it in the morning, I finally did it. I did it in the afternoon. I go round the running track once. I always go twice. But it seems like I’m not ready for it today. My body strength has changed these days I’ve been far, or my mind is messing me up. But whatever it is, damn it, I go on, as far as I can. Yes I go on. . . A little further. Sun burns my back. I wish the whole track was in a way that it shone on my face not my back, or maybe that is another tricks my mind has

Get a pack of cigarettes and sit down.” it says

I don’t listen

My encouraging mind motivates me, and I go on. . . After some time, I feel like I don’t want to run anymore. I walk. My deceitful thoughts arise, with blames and accusations of this kind, “Here you go! You were so lazy these days, weren’t you?! Now you can’t even run anymore! Forget about it. You belong to a trash bin

But dear reader it doesn’t matter, even if I’m in a trash hole itself, I get me out of it. I get away

I breathe more easily by now, I start running again

If I run less today, it doesn’t matter, the fact that I go on to the end is important. Tomorrow is another day. So today, I go to the end of the running track, then start walking back, until I arrive home and hit the shower in an instant

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Was it interesting?

Here’s a speech. . .

I do whatever it takes to beat my laziness

In order to defeat my laziness

I go running in ninety percent wetness and forty five degrees celsius

I run under the heavy rains of autumns

in winters

in the far neighborhoods of dangerous places

On slippery slope roads

On days shades are what birds are looking for

Running is what I prove myself with

Prove to whom? you ask me

To me

I prove myself to me

I stiffen up and go to running tracks, so that my deceiving mind gets ashamed of itself and shut up

But don’t think that doing it once or twice is enough. On the contrary. Once or twice that I call it off, it is enough for my mind to doubt it all

Doubt what?

Doubt I

If I believe in I, who can doubt what?

Who cares, who doubts what!

If my mind is right, I live without doubt, believing I

Laziness is not a quality of certain people. Someone’s nose is big, someone’s eyes are small, someone’s forehead is long, and someone’s chin is defined. But laziness and defeating laziness is a decision that must be made every day. It takes willpower. If you made it today, don’t think that you’ve got it tomorrow as well. Tomorrow, you must make your decision, get determined, and act on it, again. It will be your investment in life. Think of it this way: the more willpower you use, the more your investments value

Do you know how you use the willpower of yours?

Well, there are many ways, but one of the major ways is to say No. The more you say No, the more willpower you use

Say No to a friend, No to a family, No to yourself, No to mere fun, No to sitting down, No to wasting time

So, dear friend

A running track is not meant to be the way of defeating laziness for all of us. Find your own running tracks. If you find it, stick to it. If you haven’t, do whatever it takes to find it and then stick to it. Maybe it’s not just one thing, maybe it’s two or three, but always have it

The major way of investing in life, from now on, is to watch out for the holes in your willpower’s pocket. Save it, get a needle and thread to mend it, say No and use it. Only after it will you be able to invest your willpower in life and reach the furthest tourist attractions, buy the newest cars, and live in highest towers. Promise

Regards